Saturday, October 20, 2012
I'm in tears. I'm in shock.
How could this have happened?
She was one of my first followers when I started youtube. She was one of my first followers when I opened up my twitter account and the same when I recently opened my facebook page.
She was one to comment on each video I posted. She was funny. She was great to talk to. She was a beautiful person, inside and out.
We got to know each other on a personal level and even though we were not extremely close, as I tend to keep a lot of people at a distance for my own reasons, I considered her a real friend. I always thought of her when I posted a video. I always thought of her when I did a new hairstyle.
She was the queen of twist outs! I could never get mine to look as nice as hers.
I never got the chance to meet her face to face but often thought of just taking that long drive, just for a quick visit.
I had actually been thinking of her, wondering if she had the baby yet. I hadnt seen her post on twitter, facebook, or youtube. Come to find out that this is what happened.
In the back of my mind, I keep hoping she is going to pop up with a new video telling us all that this was a publicity stunt.
I'm in utter denial.
But obviously, this is real.
This is life.
This is crazy! And I know some people would think I am out of my mind for crying so hard over someone I never met before, but I didn't need to meet her to know her. She was a true friend. There are always those certain people that you feel connected with. for me she was one of those people.
I started out being her hair inspiration and she ended up being my inspiration. I'm so sad because she will never know that.
I pray that her baby makes it out of this well.