I was going through all my old posts and came across one where I briefly announced the birth of my youngest child. So I decided to document them all from what I can remember here.
I'm going to start off with the first one.
I was a young mom still in highschool about to graduate when I had my first baby. He changed my life for the better.
I did not have any good and real friends. In fact I didnt even know what a good friend looked like at that time in my life. I didnt really have low self esteem. I just ended up keeping to myself the majority of the time. I am very quick to cut someone off at times.
I met this guy. He was so sweet to me. We got into a little relationship very fast. I had known him for a year prior to actually being with him. Within a few months I was pregnant. I was in extreme denial at first because I gained almost no weight until the 5th month. My mom found out when I was 6 months and my dad when I was almost 7 months.
Aside from being so small it was a normal healthy pregnancy. I only remember throwing up a handful of times throughout the entire thing. Everything was peaches and cream.
One day I woke up and I was leaking fluid. It wasnt much and I had no clue what had happened. I had a doctors appointment that same day so I decided to wait until then to find out what was going on.
When I got there they told me my water had broken! It was too soon!! I was only 8 months!
Technically I was 36 weeks. So I was right at that point where its any day now. They gave me a sonogram and basically he was ready! But I never actually went into labor!!
I left the doctors office after waiting around for my dad for hours! I had to go to the hospital to get a C-Section. The baby was way small.
When I got there, my dad left me alone. The baby's father was no where in sight.
I was all alone. They gave me a spinal and wheeled me into surgery. I watched as my feet slowly fell to the sides and I couldnt feel or move anything from the waist down.
It was a CRAZY feeling.
They cut me open which I do vaguley remember feeling. It didnt hurt, just felt weird. Then I could feel them pulling and kind of jerking me around.
Next thing I know my brand new baby boy was in my arms, while they sewed me back up.
He was the most precious and tiny little thing I had ever seen in my life.
At that moment in time. E.V. E. R. Y. T. H. I. N. G. Stopped.
There was only him.
He was the love of my life.
He was 4lbs 11ozs. 19"
He had very pale pink skin and the thickest bush of hair on his head I have ever seen!!
I spent the next 3 or 4 days in the hospital, and he spent the next 7 days. He was in the NICU for 3 days because he was underweight and they wanted to monitor him. When he reached 5lbs they let me take him home.
The C-Section was one of the most uncomfortable things I have ever encountered. It hurt to sneeze, it hurt to laugh, it felt funny to pee... tmi..
Within a week my scar was infected. I had to take antibiotics for 2 weeks to get rid of the infection. I couldnt move! It was terrible!
If I would have known that it would feel like that afterwards I would have had a vag birth.
I breast fed him, which I did very well with. He responded very well to it as well. Make sure to use lanolin or you will have some seriously sore nipples. Nipple shields are also great and sometimes they help the baby to latch on better.
I mostly breast fed, but bottle fed as well. I would hand pump for hours to be able to store enough milk for him.
One day, I remember pumping a good 8ozs of milk and storing it in the refrigerator. My mom found it and thought it was spoiled milk and poured it all out! She pissed me off so bad by doing that!! It took me forever to pump that much milk!
I slept with him by my side every night cuddled in my arms. One night I had a dream about snakes and felt one wrap around my arm. I flinched and woke up to his precious little legs wrapped around my wrist. I got so scared that I might have hurt him, but he was fine and sleeping so peacefully.
(*If you are a heavy sleeper or roll around a lot when you sleep you should NOT sleep in the same bed with your baby! I know a girl who killed her newborn this way. So sad. ),: )
He was the sweetest baby, and I could tell he was going to
be like his father in that way. He always looked up to me as if looking
for my approval. Every time I think of him my heart melts.
He had the cutest little giggle and I would do everything to make him laugh. I couldnt get enough. I couldnt get enough of him.
I hated leaving him. But obviously I had to finish school and I did so and did very well mind you.
He made me a better person and has taught me so much about myself and others.
He is the first love of my life.